Considerations on Day Three of the Master Cleanse

Well, today I went shopping for lots of things, including lemons and limes, and also colby cheese, gourmet italian sausage ravioli, granola bars, pretzels, Doritos, bartlett pears, broccoli florets, YOU GET THE IDEA. Food. I am very hungry now that I'm not nauseated, and I just want to eat. Sadie and Benny were sampling different granola bars at the sampler ladies, and Sadie didn't want the rest of one of her samples, and she handed it to me, and I had it ALMOST IN MY MOUTH, and then I pulled it back, shocked, because, I clean up whatever they don't finish, I mindlessly finish it, being the human garbage disposal, and I actually almost ate that piece of granola, without thinking. I found myself thinking, I could just lick it.

I'll tell you what -- this is very enlightening.

I'm not hungry -- well, I am, but not insanely hungry. But I miss eating food. Foooooood. Food is stuff, the stuff you put into your mouth. Everything is stuff, but some stuff is food. Food is good. I like it. I like eating it. I will say this: When I am done with this fast, I will really strive not to mindlessly eat any more. I am going to appreciate every scrap of cheese, every ripe strawberry, every bite of buttered toast. I really hope I will not forget this experience, and go back to eating quickly, thoughtlessly, while watching TV or surfing the net or whatever. It also makes me think... I don't want to eat crap anymore. I want to... spend lots of time preparing careful exact things made of proper ingredients and then eat it, slowly, carefully. I guess I am saying that I want to pay more attention.

I cut up a plate of peaches for Sadie. Peeled them, sliced them, spread them out on the plate all nice. She doesn't even want them. Sigh.

We got _The Little Mermaid_ today -- I had never seen it, but I *really* like it. She's so sweet and earnest and good and cute. Cinderella wishes she could be this cool.