Day 2 is Over

At least I'm calling it over.

I've settled on this: Big glass of water with 3 tablespoons of lemon juice, one tablespoon of maple syrup, no cayenne pepper. I can't handle it until I feel less like puking the earth.

The headache got so bad today that I took one of Dan's migraine pills, just because I had to be functional. I was ready to slam my head in the front door repeatedly, just to either crack it open or explode it or something. It was DIRE. Total nausea. I realize I probably shouldn't have taken drugs while cleansing, but... I couldn't go on and I have children to take care of.

This *can't* all be caffeine withdrawal. I've gone off caffeine before... multiple times. And it isn't this bad. I've quit smoking and it wasn't this bad. This reminds me of when I was in my first trimester with Benny -- and I remember lying on the tile floor in our apartment in Chicago, periodically getting upright to unload nothingness into the toilet, then falling back down to press my head against the floor. Only pregnancy is this bad -- yay for pregnancy.

The other thing, and I realize this is gross, is that I haven't pooped yet and I'm supposed to be pooping like 3 times a day with military precision. I did the Senna tea today -- couldn't get it down last night either. I think with all the hurling I might be dehydrated. I'm going to earnestly TRY now that I have a little headache relief from the Midrin, to drink a whole lot of water.

Benny is sweetly, sweetly, lovingly helping Sadie play her computer game, with his hand sweetly lovingly on her little round head. These children are so completely adorable.